Sunday 8 October 2017

Taking a break

Hello everyone. Sorry to have to spring this upon you, but with the Roxy in Kingsman situation, I feel incapable of thinking about anything else.

I sense that my mental health is deteriorating, and I won't stop until I have some closure and/or an answer. Last night, I plucked up the courage to watch the scene in the new Kingsman movie of Roxy diving under her bed in the Kingsman mansion before it is blown up and collapses.

I haven't slept since, and I am on a mission like a man possessed to find an answer. As pathetic as it sounds, this does mean a lot to me and your concern is appreciated but not necessary.

The reason why I feel the need to post this here is because I did plan on writing so many articles on here during October and the subsequent months. But this has consumed me and it wouldn't be fair on you to turn my blog into a Roxy from Kingsman ritual or whatever you would call it.

If anything, my return may be a lot earlier than even I expect. As is always the case with all my articles, they're always written in a very impromptu and sporadic manner which is how I like writing my stuff, so who knows? Maybe tomorrow, something will happen that I feel very keen to talk at length about, and I'll go back on my promise of taking a break.

But as of now, I'm not in a good place. I know how pathetic I come across as, I know fine well that this is "just a movie" but it was always so much more than that to me.

Regardless though, I don't think it's fair on all of you if I continue pouring my heart out regarding all of this and you lot get fed up of it. So I will be taking what I plan to be an extended break from writing on here, and either I'll return every so often to write something I believe to be worth writing about, or full time once this shitty situation is sorted.

My apologies to all of you. I want to be better, I want to wake up from this awful dream where I don't have so much hatred, so little power and influence, so much frustration yet so little in the way of actual resolution. Because nobody is going to change anything out of pity, I wouldn't want that.

So I'll see you all soon. I hope there is a light at the end of this tunnel.

Bye for now.
Luca.